HOW THE LORD HELPED ME IN 2018
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A year ago, I posted this to Facebook:
My goal words for
2018 were "Focus" and "Keep my promises." The two
are inextricably linked in my life.
I realized only this morning that the Lord marvelously has helped me with both during 2018!
Because of much desperate prayer, 5 months ago He brought into my life one thing that has been an answer to so many of my prayers. (I'll share that privately with you, if you ask.)
And then He revealed to me two problem areas - that have been the source of much grief. The timing of this all is beautiful!!
I was relieved to find they are not my fault - they have been ingrained into my physique. I have been beating myself up emotionally and spiritually for things beyond my control!
Yesterday morning during communion I was struck by just how gracious my Abba Father is. For decades I have stumbled and bumbled toward the cross - a passionate, frustrating struggle. Sometimes I've given up. (But not for long. He won't let me!) Sometimes I've gotten angry. Sometimes I inadvertently ruined relationships.
Yet, through it all, my loving Father has patiently led and guided me. What wondrous love is this, O my soul?! During the countless times I couldn't keep my focus, He did not give up on me in disgust. He has always known the hidden thing that I have only recently learned, and He has cradled me and nurtured and comforted and instructed and disciplined me and waited for me to be ready for these revelations.
I realized only this morning that the Lord marvelously has helped me with both during 2018!
Because of much desperate prayer, 5 months ago He brought into my life one thing that has been an answer to so many of my prayers. (I'll share that privately with you, if you ask.)
And then He revealed to me two problem areas - that have been the source of much grief. The timing of this all is beautiful!!
I was relieved to find they are not my fault - they have been ingrained into my physique. I have been beating myself up emotionally and spiritually for things beyond my control!
Yesterday morning during communion I was struck by just how gracious my Abba Father is. For decades I have stumbled and bumbled toward the cross - a passionate, frustrating struggle. Sometimes I've given up. (But not for long. He won't let me!) Sometimes I've gotten angry. Sometimes I inadvertently ruined relationships.
Yet, through it all, my loving Father has patiently led and guided me. What wondrous love is this, O my soul?! During the countless times I couldn't keep my focus, He did not give up on me in disgust. He has always known the hidden thing that I have only recently learned, and He has cradled me and nurtured and comforted and instructed and disciplined me and waited for me to be ready for these revelations.
[Re-reading this again, in January 2020 - my heart swells with gratitude and gladness, almost bursting!]
He never gave up. This compels me to worship Him afresh, adding another rich dimension to our relationship.
During communion yesterday, tears leaked. And again today as I bask in this wonderment, again I cry tears of joy. Thank you, my loving Abba! I cannot thank and praise You enough!
He never gave up. This compels me to worship Him afresh, adding another rich dimension to our relationship.
During communion yesterday, tears leaked. And again today as I bask in this wonderment, again I cry tears of joy. Thank you, my loving Abba! I cannot thank and praise You enough!
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